Yerp.

I feel so cool…
Well not really, but I do feel fancy though
Yesterday was beccas birthday 🙂 she turned 18, which is kinda scary but really exciting. My baby’s growing up! :'{ but I still love her, despite her abandoning me to brace childhood without another child by my side… Oh wells 8(
Well, as I was saying before, bout feeling fancy.. Becca got an iPad! I’m super happy she did, she deserves something great for being such an awesome person 🙂
But do you know what that means? It means that she’s a great sharer, and though I do respect that it’s all hers and shiny and brand-new… I get to use it sometimes too! 🙂 haughty. Wow. Right there, where it says “haughty” I wrote yay. That’s how weird the autocorrect thing is. But I’ll take it, it puts all my contractions correctly, and helps if I don’t know how to spell a word. Anyways…… It’s 2:02, and I gotta wake up early and clean tomorrow… 🙂
Love you becca! And happy birthday again :)))

Crybaby.

Yep, sadly, thats me!

It bugs me :S I get one mean look and my chin starts trembling uncontrollably.  Its like.. I honestly can’t help it. I do my best to cool down my face by washing it or fanning it, cuz it sometimes works; but when it doesn’t, I start sobbing and its really hard to stop again. Maybe i’m just too sensitive. Or my tear ducts are  sick. 

Ill go with that..

My tear ducts are sick!

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And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams..

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you’ll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I’m even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin’ tread the ground that I’m walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You’ll understand what I mean when I say
There’s no way we’re gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You’ll understand what I mean when I say
There’s no way we’re gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it’s me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You’ll understand what I mean when I say
There’s no way we’re gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it’s getting harder and harder to breathe
is there anyone out there cuz its gettin harder and harder to breathe

Fuck you, Lily Allen

Look inside
Look inside your tiny mind
Now look a bit harder
Cause we’re so uninspired, so sick and tired of all the hatred you harbor

So you say
It’s not okay to be gay
Well I think you’re just evil
You’re just some racist who can’t tie my laces
Your point of view is medieval

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don’t stay in touch

Do you get
Do you get a little kick out of being slow minded?
You want to be like your father
It’s approval you’re after
Well that’s not how you find it

Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that’s so hateful?
Cause there’s a hole where your soul should be
Your losing control of it and it’s really distasteful

Fuck you
Fuck you very, very much
Cause we hate what you do
And we hate your whole crew
So please don’t stay in touch

You say, you think we need to go to war
Well you’re already in one,
Cause its people like you
That need to get slew
No one wants your opinion

Hmm.

I stopped looking for the monsters under the bed when I realized they were inside of me.

What are all these scars?

My battle wounds.

Who are you battling?

Myself.

The greatest loss in life is not death; but the loss of something inside of you that says you’re alive..

Death is a promise; life is nothing but a fucking lie.

Nothing endures, not a tree, not love, not even death by violence

Deep inside, I hate myself.

You made me cry.

And for some reason, I will always silently resent you for that.

Just tell me…

Whats one thing that doesn’t end?

How would you describe the society you live in?

What can you do to make someone smile?

What is lacking in this world?

What word best sums up the world you live in?

What offends you?

Spare me.

Simply breathtaking, don't you agree?

     My very first post… This is an unforgettable moment in history. Someone get a pen and write down the date! Just kidding, moving on.

     Well I’ve never done this sort of thing before, so I therefore declare you are my audience. I may not know who you are but you will soon know who I am, if you’re agreeable to it of course. If you choose, you can listen to me rant and rave, vent, or unload. All that delightful teenage angst type shabb that goes on in the world.

Yes, i know the word shabb doesn’t exist; and frankly? I don’t care 🙂

Hi! I’m Tamar, I’m 15, and I love my cat 🙂

And my family, some of my friends, flowers, the sun, my significant other, reading, the internet, EATING..

All that good stuff!

My name… You can either pronounce it Tuh-Mawr, like the heavily accented Americans, or Tah-Mah, like the cool Brasilians.

Or by one of my nicknames;

Tata

Tatu

Tartaruga

Mar

Tammy

Or

Bubbles