I begged you for life, saying:
“Let me fade into nothingness!”
I pleaded for change,
But I am set in my ways.
I craved his attention –
Saw him and turned my head away.
I pinch at the fat of my tummy in disgust,
Insisting that yes, I do love myself.
I fucked them and bashed slut-shaming;
Yet my actions led to guilty remorse.
I curse your wounds and spit hell into your eyes,
Hearing whispers of peace & tranquility.
I nurtured a broken one to mental health –
I shame you for your illnesses.
I am fire, then embers, then ashes.
I want to be kind.
I want to be loving.
I want to be better.
You are what you say you are,
And life is what you make of it.
I am kind.
I am loving.
I am better now.